Will it be tough? Hell yes it can be! Will I wish I was somewhere else then I was right then?? Quite possibly.. Will it always work out? Uhh.. Absolutely not.. Sometimes one quick decision will need to lead to another. BUT will I say-- "I wish I would have done something different?" Hell no!! I will say-- this is what I did and my current decisions are now what is important. Time to find a way to make it work or move it along!
Does that mean that sometimes I make rash decisions that I have to apologize for? Oh my jeeze YES!!! But I also have tact.. usually... well-- I have my moments. I'm human, alright! I really do my best to make these decisions with class and not to burn bridges.. but no matter how much I work to make it an easy switch some people don't care for my decisions. For the most part though, I work everyday on being a better person. That means leaving my past decisions in the past and only working to make sure I am so happy that it seeps out of my pores and into the people around me... Almost like an extremely contagious happy disease.
Now-- some see this as a downfall. I don't get a chance to test the waters before I jump into things. They may even see this as one of my biggest flaws in life. "Well, that girl, she doesn't have a clue." I have what is important. I take what I need and ditch the rest. I just see no reason in wasting time when things aren't working out.
You see-- I realized something about me. That I was not one of those people who felt as though they have to think long and hard to make the right decisions. I believe that I have spent less time dwelling incessantly or worrying about the potential/current outcome of my good decisions then I even spent over my bad decisions. I never once sat and said, "Oh man!! They treated me so terribly at that job and I can do way better then this... I should have stayed and smiled through my pay cut." or ever even dreamed of saying... "You know-- that guy was really bad to me. he didn't respect me, my decisions or my family. I wish we could have babies together and live in perfect misery for the rest of our lives." It sounds funny saying it that way... But I know far too many people who think this way without even realizing that's what they're doing.
I have a family that loves me. I have children who are brilliant.. I have the most amazing friends that a person could ever ask for. There is food in my belly.. Shoes on my feet (when necessary).. Clothes on my back. If I need something--- someone will ALWAYS be there for me or I will be strong enough to figure it out on my on. I have no doubt that I may feel alone from time to time but I know that I am never truly alone. People love me too much to allow that, just as I would for them.
Now, I'm not saying this kind of mindset is for everyone. You may need to feel as though you are calculated and well thought out in your ways.. And really, to a huge extent, I do too. Becoming a fly by the seat of my pants-er did NOT happen over night. I would spend weeks, months or even years thinking on how I wished I could have something instead of making the decision and going for it..... But now I think, "Why waste time. If you want it. GO AND GET IT!"
This is my first bikini in 19 years and somehow I feel better in it at 36 then I did at 17. And it only took me 3 seconds to decide to post this! Nice quick decision with no regrets! |