Will it be tough? Hell yes it can be! Will I wish I was somewhere else then I was right then?? Quite possibly.. Will it always work out? Uhh.. Absolutely not.. Sometimes one quick decision will need to lead to another. BUT will I say-- "I wish I would have done something different?" Hell no!! I will say-- this is what I did and my current decisions are now what is important. Time to find a way to make it work or move it along!

Now-- some see this as a downfall. I don't get a chance to test the waters before I jump into things. They may even see this as one of my biggest flaws in life. "Well, that girl, she doesn't have a clue." I have what is important. I take what I need and ditch the rest. I just see no reason in wasting time when things aren't working out.
You see-- I realized something about me. That I was not one of those people who felt as though they have to think long and hard to make the right decisions. I believe that I have spent less time dwelling incessantly or worrying about the potential/current outcome of my good decisions then I even spent over my bad decisions. I never once sat and said, "Oh man!! They treated me so terribly at that job and I can do way better then this... I should have stayed and smiled through my pay cut." or ever even dreamed of saying... "You know-- that guy was really bad to me. he didn't respect me, my decisions or my family. I wish we could have babies together and live in perfect misery for the rest of our lives." It sounds funny saying it that way... But I know far too many people who think this way without even realizing that's what they're doing.
I have a family that loves me. I have children who are brilliant.. I have the most amazing friends that a person could ever ask for. There is food in my belly.. Shoes on my feet (when necessary).. Clothes on my back. If I need something--- someone will ALWAYS be there for me or I will be strong enough to figure it out on my on. I have no doubt that I may feel alone from time to time but I know that I am never truly alone. People love me too much to allow that, just as I would for them.

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This is my first bikini in 19 years and somehow I feel better in it at 36 then I did at 17. And it only took me 3 seconds to decide to post this! Nice quick decision with no regrets! |